"Savin' the world on his own"

If I could have one wish right now it would be for a magic wand.

I'm not talking one of those black plastic ones that come in the magician kits or the glittery silver ones that come with princess costumes. I want a magic wand that has actual powers to do good. With one simple tap on their forehead I'd be able to fix the major malfunctions in a person's life. It would be wonderful.

I say this partly out of kindness because I don't like to see people upset.

I say this partly out of selfishness because I'm tired of sitting around not knowing what I'm supposed to do about situations to make them better for people. I hate feeling like I'm stuck in the middle of things.

So, yea. Magic wand. And then a memory erasing spell that would rid me of the memories of all of that.

I think that's a good plan.

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"'cause the world is on an upspin"

I am so glad the sun finally remembered it had a job to do and came back out to play. The weather here is almost the perfect reflection of a spring day back home.

I find a lot of my mood tends to depend on the weather. I suppose that's part of our surroundings having an affect on us. Sometimes I wonder if the reason I've done so much better here than I did up in NY is because of the climate. Sure it sounds silly, but the days and moments I remember the most from there tend to revolve around sunnier days and warmer weather. That's not to say nothing that happened in the rain or snow mattered, but I just don't seem to have the same kind of attachment to those sorts of days.

Friday night was miserable once the bad weather kicked in. Granted I had a few external pushes, but I could feel that I was sinking and I didn't like it. I bummed around with Derek all day Saturday as it poured outside and, when I went back late that night, could've taken a boat down parts of Mel. Ave.

I wish I had some one to go play frisbee with. It'd be a great day for it. Then again, I'm not sure I know where my frisbee is. It's a shame too because it's a bright yellow, happy-faced one. Work calls anyhow, so I guess I'll just have to enjoy the weather later.

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If I Had Wings...

The weather down here has been funny. We'll have a beautiful afternoon which turns so cold after the sun goes down that the temperature can't recover for days. I wish it would remember that Florida is supposed to be warm this time of year and move on.

It was on of these afternoons that my attention drifted skyward, as it often does, and I noticed a bird riding the wind currents. I watched the way he moved through the air soaring upwards and quickly diving down only to be lifted up again. I found it hard to watch the road as I got caught up in his motions. I couldn't help but feel a little jealous of him. I commented to my passenger that he looked like he was having fun and how I wished I could do that.

On the surface it seems like it would be great fun to be able to catch an air current and find myself someplace new. I wonder where I would go first.

As I dig deeper into it I have to question if and when the novelty would wear off. So many things seem exciting when they begin, but as they become more routine they tend to be taken for granted. How long can something truly be appreciated for?

For me, I know there are some things for which my appreciation has not changed. But what makes noticing those things an unconscious effort? Why is it that I see so many things other people ignore? Why do I miss so many things those other people see? Who's really better off?

I used to have a friend online who said that if you didn't ask questions then you didn't have any desire to learn any more. Today I find again that instead of crossing off items on my list of questions I add more. Maybe this is a good sign.

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Half Full or Half Empty?

Well, as I like to say, that depends on how you feel about what's in the glass.

I'm posting with limited time tonight to let anyone who stumbles upon this page know that I'm going MIA for a little while. I'd expect an absense of at least a week, maybe two. I'm not one who's usually big on posting my schedule (it usually requires too much time), but I'll indulge just this once.

Tuesday: Spanish Homework Due
Wednesday: Cryptography Exam (Study until then)
Wednesday: Requirements Engineering Group Stuff due (Work until then)
Wednesday: Career Fair (Update Resume before then)
Thursday: Scholarship Reception (Write speech before then)
Thursday: Talent Show
Friday: Alumni Association Board meeting
Friday: Office Decorating Judging (Design/Buy Supplies/Organize co-workers/Decorate before then)
Friday: Wacky Wars
Friday: King and Queen Money Due (Fundraise until then)
Saturday: Homecoming Parade (Find costume and build float before then)
Saturday: Homecoming Dance (Learn to dance/lip sync and find something to wear before then)
Monday: 2000 Word Malicious Code Paper due (Research and write before then)
Monday: Requirements Engineering Test (Study before then)
Tuesday: Interviews at NASA all day
Wednesday: Malicious Code Exam (Study before then)

Not to mention my room is a mess, my clean laundry has yet to be folded, I'm not unpacked from this weekend, and I'm sick.

I was a little worried before, but you know what? I've done worse. Watch me make it through this one!

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