December 10, 2001
It's amazing to me that after years and years of listening to this cd (and it's got the scratches to prove it's been well loved) I can still hear new stuff when I listen to it.
The CD: DMB's Crash
The Song: Tripping Billies
The Thing I Never Noticed: I can't really describe it, but at the part where Dave's all "So why would you care to get out of this place" you can hear what I can only assume is Boyd playing a bit of a scale type thing. It's like "doot doot doot doooo doooo". That's the only way I can describe the sound. You'd have to hear it to understand. But that would also require you caring.
I noticed it during my Intro to Info Sys final this afternoon. Surprisingly enough she didn't ask me to remove the headphones and I was more than happy to have a little dmb to get me through the exam. Every time the song changed it was so quiet it wasn't even funny. I may have to see if I can get away with it in my other exams. I doubt it in a few, but I have to try.
Billies actually came on as I was finishing my exam and turning it in. Well, that's when it came on the second time. I was in my final for almost the full two hours, but like I said before it went damn well. Anyway, I just had to share the little song thing. I swear, if I got money every time I mentioned dmb in a post, hell, if I got money every time I mentioned music, I'd have a lot of money.
Damnit!!! My cd's making funny noises. I guess I can add it to the list of DMB cd's I've played until they don't work right. Of course R2T has a mysterious crack, but what can you do? Guess I'll have to replace them one of these days when I have more money.
Anyhow, I guess I'm going to try and do some work until Liz gets back and we can chat. Ciao!
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December 14, 2001
Today I'm done.
I've taken my last final. I've run my last errand.
Tomorrow is graduation, and while I'm not among the many leaving the university for good I can't help but find myself looking ahead.
It's amazing how long ago my last graduation seems. I can still see SPAC that day, and my classmates lined up to walk into the amphitheater to spend our last hour as high school students.
I find that as much as I've changed in the last few years, as much as I've grown, I still can't see a week ahead of where I am. I know about what I'll be doing as my schedule is pretty much laid out, but I can't even imagine how I'll feel or what I'll be thinking or what will be going on around me. Every day I walk around a place that didn't exist to me until over two years ago. I walk to and from a "home" that I've had for 4 months and will leave just as quickly.
I never saw the day I'd leave the only place that will ever truly be home to me. It is the only place I'll ever be able to look back on in that particular way.
I find that my lack of planning for the future doesn't come from wanting to enjoy what I have at a given time as much as not wanting to put things behind me. I enjoy where I am, I love where I've been, but I make no concession for the things that lie ahead. For as much as you can't spend your days looking ahead and hoping something better will come along, you can't spend your days clinging to the past either. The truth be known, I have a very hard time letting go. I think the only thing in my life that I have a soft spot for other than my sister is my childhood.
I don't want life to go on. I don't want to get up and leave like I have to do every time I turn around. And I know that I'd get bored and curse the day I asked time to stop, but I don't want to lose all the people I have right now. I can't imagine being dead, yet I know I can't live forever. I can't imagine not having my family, yet I know they too are unable to live forever.
I don't know what does it. I don't know how three days of "three cheers" and "here's to" posts can turn around so quickly, but they have. It's also unfortunate to think that this is the post I'll be leaving with. Although, on the plus side, it won't be there the entire time I'm gone. Remember my computer has to be turned off, so there goes my site for a few weeks. Until then, you all keep well and be safe.
~bec
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